NO LOVE | NO GLORY

Invizible Ink

2011-12-16T23:16:00.011+08:00

"It's like there is this war going on inside my head all the time and i don't know how to stop it."
This time, i really overestimated myself. Thought i was so much better, but today i realised that i just can't do it. I really tried, i'm sorry. As much as i know how badly i'll fall and probably never pick myself up ever again, i don't wna hold you down anymore. Guess it's time for you to have your fair share of fun, and i'll never blame you. If you ever go, promise me to never turn back for a last glance 'cos i know i'll run after you for that one last hug that i'll never ever want to let go..

2011-12-09T13:13:00.001+08:00

How to be brave,

How can i fall in love,

When i'm afraid to fall.

6 A.M

2011-12-09T06:00:00.004+08:00

Always back to this space whnv i dont feel right. Each time i tell myself 'i dont understand why im putting myself through these' i think about how someday i will give up because i don't think i deserve this from myself. Scariest of it all, this feeling gets stronger. I have this real weird habit of containing all my resentment and unhappiness in me, but somehow i think it's plainly because i dont have the courage to really confront them. Excuses after excuses, i never run out of them. I find myself so strange actually. Its like i'm having some split personality issues for real. I hit the peak of being soooooooooo contented with my life then i think about the most mind hogging things i never ever solved and too afraid to face. These problems waiting in line just dont seem to be able to escape through my teeth :s

Without Words

2011-12-01T03:09:00.001+08:00

To my dearest Kelbel,

2011-12-01T01:22:00.003+08:00

You're rly sucha sweetheart, my heart went all fuzzy whn u told me to update this so that u'll know how i'm dg. So glad to hv you and Jess with me for the past 19 years, and Nna who came in a few yrs later bt still felt like shes been with us since frvr. Although u're a million miles away, always rmb that we're always taking every step with you. And whn u're lonely, close your eyes and you'll see our laughing faces. I'm updating this (dead) space just for you! Right now im feeling rly........... blah hahaha. Not a nice blah btw. Sigh, problems never seem to have any difficulties multiplying so rapidly. Sometimes so quick, it buries us so deep down till you call surrender. Bt you knw i'll be fine :) Hugs and kisses to keep u all warm this winter, love you always!

Wonderwoman

2011-11-10T18:58:00.001+08:00

Typing this while lugging my laptop and trying t balance myself and a cake on the train. Sounds funny haha and I feel like Wonderwoman, hv always admired her and I rly wna be like her! Wouldn't it be nice to be useful and (hv a boyfriend like batman) haha! Ok back to the point! I kinda like the fact that I'm rushing w the peak hr crowd - morning and evening. I have taken this recent liking fr whole OLish thing. Probably cos age IS catching up afterall. Bt of course I'm nt wearing office wear cos I'm just doing some part time data entry fr ab advertising firm and they don't need to dress formally. Kinda wonder wht my future job will be hmmmm. On a side note, on days like this I wished I bought a
MacBook Air, which I shld be getting soon after procrastinating fr so long cos I can't live w/o Funshion! Whoever created that intranet thingum is rly Rly RLY a (effing) genius!!!!!!!!! Ok ciao, Korean steamboat awaiting fr me at hme! It's the parent's anniversary tmr, 111111, bt we've gt a wedding dinner t attend so we're hving an early celebration fo' zee folkz :) Hugs and kisses!

Everyone Judges

2011-10-24T18:43:00.003+08:00

Girls will always be girls. They seek help from girlfriends to pour their hearts out, t keep them sane. But whats actly stopping me frm that is, i'm afraid of being judged and i dont wna hear things that will probably hurt me even more. You knw how ppl will go "i knw its gna hurt but (fill in th blanks)" Yes. I am freaking afraid of such lines. Im a hypocrite, cos i've said it before, maybe many times to those i rly care about. But i'm rly rly afraid of being in those situations..

Mobile upload bfre Bedtime

2011-10-24T03:51:00.001+08:00

I use t let a total stranger control my feelings, my ego and my confidence by the finger and thought how things couldn't be any worse. That was rock bottom, then. Now I realise, it's the ppl around u that'll hurt you the most eventually. Because they mean so much, because u always thought things were pure and simple, that whn the slightest thing goes out of line, it hits the hardest. No, I do nt knw hw t put thoughts into words, so nobody will ever, ever knw this storm I'm fighting within me. I've always been strong, I knw I'll still be. Bt this time, I can only overcome the battle of putting a front. This war between my heart and brain is what I fear. Bt th ego stops me from any form of help. Helpless? Probably. One day, when it all stops, is whn the decision has been made. Most likely with regrets, bt I won't look back.

2011-10-16T01:15:00.003+08:00

Been spending SO SO much money online during my 16days of home 'quarantine' because of chicken pox! :S Feeling extremely guilty. When i see sth i like online, i'll just not hesitate to buy it! Even though i will ask myself whether or not i'll use it, and whether or not i'll still like it after it reaches my house, i'll just tell myself 'aiya just get first la!' Compulsive impulsive buyer. I like to buy things even though i might not use them, to me as long as it looks nice i can convince myself that i'll use it ONE DAY. Whattttttttt nonsense is this??! Is there like a rehab fr online shopping? Sigh. Anyway....... to continue ranting, i've got a HUGE DEEP chicken pox scar on my left cheek. Its sooooo huge and deep that even aftr 2 days i accidentally peeled the scab off, the wound is still kinda raw. Gross right!!?!?!?! Sigh..... that feeling of regret. I didnt peel it on purpose, bt i keep thinking to myself 'if only i could've been more careful, if only i could've been more gentle' sigh sigh sigh very heartpain actually. I mean, the scar is gna be there for a very long time; almost forever what.. even with concealer im sure its gna be pretty obv right.. :'(

2011-10-09T21:56:00.004+08:00

I know i know, i've been missing for a couple of months. It happens when laziness gets the better of me. Life has been... different i'd say. With Bryane now having his intern and we only meet during the weekends, thats a huuuggee change fr me! Everyth is changing. But oh well, embrace and move on right? Moving on, managed t make a trip down t Antoinette, Hairloom & Caramel (which will be closing early Nov!) and Marmalade Pantry. Don't we all just luv a relaxing afternoon, with the company of light desserts and tea mmmmmm :P

First up, Antoinette (Mandarin Gallery Outlet)

Food was pretty ok i'd say, bt we gave desserts a miss cos we were too full. Had Risotto which i kinda enjoyed although th portion was huge. And J ordered a Breakfast Set (we were hving dinner btw) with extra Eggs Benedict fr me! Tee hee *beams*

After dinner th shops were almost closed, so we headed t Gusttimo di Roma fr a drink
Haha probably our fav drink ;P Jaggerbombs!

Marmalade Pantry
J with her huge ass Chocolate Cake which she absolutely loved! I thought it was a tad too bitter fr my liking tho

But i simply loved my Seasalt Caramel Cheesecake!

Hairloom & Caramel
Chocolate Caramel Cupcake!

The food thr was a quite a let down, and the cupcakes were just mediocre, in my opinion. Bt i loved the layout of the place, gd place fr a nice and relaxing afternoon :)

I'm sucha sucker fr cute and cozy interior designs, mad luv such layouts!

2011-09-04T21:46:00.003+08:00

I've been on the longest hiatus ever! Been rly bz (and lz) with sch work etc, bt i managed t squeeze in a wk of brk to make a trip t bkk! Will be updating this space w more pictures soon and im gna be bck, tata!
//

I always believe that whn u get sth out yr way, u'll lose sth. Bt i didnt force anyth to my own benefit, so why am i losing so much.. For 19 years, i've been living a comfortable life that my parents gave. I knw it, so i dont complain. Bt th better things are for u on one side, the worse it gets on the other. The harder u try t suppress those feelings, the harder is hits on th inside. So many questions bt i'll never get answers, wht hurts the most is whn theres no one. Gdnight.

JULAI, LAI LAI

2011-07-13T02:30:00.006+08:00

Th last wk of my holidays saw me celebrating 2 of my dear friends' birthdays!
First up, Ram's 20th. Happy birthday Jay Ram! I dont think u'll ever see this but, wishing u all th best in whtv u do! xx

And Laura's 18th at Shangri-la! Happy birthday dear girl!
Stay happy (and blur) always okay! <3

REDANG

2011-06-27T14:25:00.003+08:00

Some rly rly rly late pictures frm th cruise t Redang :)

Druggystores

2011-06-23T03:25:00.003+08:00

I cant explain how much i love love, LOVE drugstores!!!!!! I can buy anyth and everyth frm there! Esp th ones in Japan (Tokio Hands etc.), they're fantabulous! Even tho i cant read a single japanese word, i'd be so tempted by th packaging and just buy th products even if i don't rly knw wht its fr! I just love buying make up, even if i use only a few. I actly hv TONS of them which are unwrapped or mayb used once and left aside... This is prolly my biggest downfall if i ever declare bankrupt :s I'm actly quite fussy w th products i use, hence tons of them left aside yet i can't bear t throw them away, thinking that i MIGHT hv use fr them someday... I knw quite gross right, bt i throw them once they're mre than a yr old la... haha well, SOME. I'm nt rly a fan of expensive European cosmetic brands cos i generally prefer Asian brands (eg. Laniege, Shiseido) But Chanel's mascara is by far one of the best i must say! Oh and my fav brand for make up brushes is frm The Body Shop! Its so soft and gd, everyone's gta lurrrrrrrve it~
Alrighty, tata fo nw folkz ciao!

2011-06-21T10:37:00.003+08:00

Photo credits: Butteredgun

1FOURTY2AM

2011-06-20T01:25:00.004+08:00

How i luv lazing my days away! Ever since the holidays started i've been lazing arnd (literally lying in bed watching shows) every other day, and i nvr felt so gd and liberated! Le sigh, sch's gna start in no time nuuuu :'( Always wonder wht i'll be like aftr graduating.. I've gt no aims in life!!!!!! :s All i dream abt is being a tai tai, srs no joke. Even my parents r starting t get worried abt my materialistic and unrealistic aspiration. Burd3n in lyf3 4ev3r..

So many unsaid truths, and i'm finally starting t taste th consequences of it. One day he is gna tell me he's had enough. He's right, he has nvr done anyth t hurt me. Bt all i had inside me was th million and one things i never dared to speak up. Never strong enough. Sometimes i rly wonder if i deserve t be loved. I'm constantly running away frm problems, i cant face up t them. Only because i'm too weak. Nobody deserves to face this incapability on my part. Mayb God has his reasons fr putting me through this? He probably has better plans fr me then..

EVERONE DESERVES A CHANCE, TO LOVE

2011-06-06T00:32:00.006+08:00

A rly heartwarming video
Aleaning shoulder or a pair of ears,
To the ppl who needs them.

Love is a beautiful feeling that nobody shld be denied of.
Everyone deserves a chance, to love.

LAUNCHING THIS SUNDAY

2011-06-04T02:19:00.001+08:00

GIRLZJUSTWNAHVFUN

2011-05-31T16:14:00.006+08:00

Went out t meet my girls since Kel is bck frm Boston! First stop was Club Soul which TOTALLY SUCKED. Except th fact that they waived off our entry fee and their jaggerbombs and other drinks were pretty cheap and reasonable, everyth else was just crap. Horrible place *shudders* So, we left fr Zirca/Rebel :) So glad we went up t lvl 2, which means, seats fr us t rest our legs! Zirca was playing bad music tht night so we just sat around fr a few drinks and headed t Rebel. So happy t see those girls, and everyth was so unstable tht night under the influence of MUCH fluids. Lots of fun and laughter! Laughing at each other's weird drinking habits etc. We all love girls' night out don't we? ;P

Off t Zirca/Rebel!

Force kissing Jess haha!

Dear Splendidsandra,

2011-05-26T22:41:00.003+08:00

Finally gg bck fr a shoot with Butteredgun aftr a long hiatus due t examinations and our diff. schedules. Thn its gna be night out w th girls on Saturday! So many things to do, yet so lazy. Gta study fr my upcoming paper, collect Tiff.&co bracelet, do sth t my horrendous hair and nails. Kinda like my mundane lifestyle, rly, im an extremely boring person i'd say. A happening nightlife isnt gna work fr me, neither does risks and thrills like another other kid my age does excite me. Then i look at my friends who are constantly hanging out in clubs, town etc. I wonder where ('toooot') do they get that energy frm!? Its sooo tiring fr me to head out fr an entire day already! Then again, i'm prolly th laziest person around. How i LOVE to slp and snuggle up t Bryane who will wake up to a huge pile of drool on his (beloved) blanket and uhm, a girl slping with her mouth wide open right beside him, sigh. Oh hv i mentioned how much i luvvvv my dog? He's sucha qt, following me around th house 24/7! We love playing hide and seek haha! I srsly think we hv some love-hate r/s gg on, bet he hates me whnv i scare him bt loves me whnv i pamper him w treats. Teehee, cant stand his greedy face awwww :)
Till then!

2011-05-24T00:24:00.002+08:00

The best things in life:
Family.Love.Friends.
I thank God fr the amazing ppl around me
The people who never gives up on me,
Scolding me fr th right reasons,
Yet always supporting me.
Though opposing me at times,
Bt loves me all along..

16TH MAY

2011-05-18T22:10:00.007+08:00

THE DAY I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE!
YAHOOOOHOOOO!!!!!

Another round of gd news today:
Im granted special consideration t sit fr my deferred paper in June!!!!
Did i mention that i was nt allowed t sit fr my Mrktg paper cos i was ONE FREAKING MINUTE late!? And it's nt like i woke up late or left my hse late. I WAS FREAKING STUCK IN A TRAFFIC JAM FR AN HR. And yea, my hse is all th way at th other end of th island pffft.
Whtv it is, I CAN RE-SIT FR MY EXAMINATION IN JUNE WHEEEEEE ^-^
Do support: http://tomorrowzoutfit.blogspot.com

LITTLE IMPS

2011-05-17T15:14:00.003+08:00

Dinner w th little imps at Marche followed by a mini celebration fr the 2 May babies Deserie and Jordan. Pretty amazing how we don't meet often bt there's always this strong connection between us. This is to many more yrs of friendship esp t Brent Walter Jordan and Rachel whom i've knw fr th longest time now! xx

ADV.

2011-05-17T14:58:00.001+08:00

DO SUPPORT: http://tomorrozoutfit.blogspot.com!!!

:')

2011-05-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

2011-04-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

The houses reveal faces.
The grasses poppies and vines dance, to the sound of the breeze from the sun.

Tranquility

2011-04-21T01:45:00.005+08:00

Shared by one of th best friends.
So calm, it amazes me.
Guess its just as it is in friendships.
In all ease, we find serenity, joy, peace and love in one another.
And before we know it, we're on a whole new level of happiness altogether.
A beauty thats in every single one of us.
No one less, no one more.

I NEED A LIFE

2011-04-20T14:18:00.002+08:00

Exams are depriving me of everyth, cant wait fr this shit t be over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On a lighter and happier note, the parents got me a Balenciaga fr my b'day! I agreed w dad t pay half of my bag initially, bt they decided t get it fr my 19th instead :) Hehehe, till then folkz!

Always ♥

2011-04-15T02:52:00.003+08:00

I can have many friends, bt all he has is just me and my family.

BUTTEREDGUN

2011-04-09T13:02:00.004+08:00

SHOP NOW: http://butteredgun.livejournal.com/

2011-03-15T01:33:00.003+08:00

Can never understand how a person can get so lazy and unmotivated, besides im not smart and neither am i hardworking. My ultimate plan (till now) is still quit sch and join SQ or whtv airline tht accepts me. Hate being stuck in sgp all th time, it just gets too boring. But le sigh, the folks will never see me through that oh well... Then, i contradict. As much as i hate studying, i see the huge HUGE importance of it. So, i'd like t fast forward my life till 8 yrs later (when im happily married i hope). Hehe sayonara! #prayforjapan

2011-03-13T16:25:00.002+08:00

How i luv weekends w them :)

Pretty Rachel and Brenty ♥

Dexter-DeeDee sibz lovin'

2011-03-10T12:10:00.000+08:00

Some kind of trust built silently, this is why i love him so much.
He who accepts me for who i am, isnt gna run away frm my family of traditionalists.
He who faces the storm with me, shall be th one i wna spend the rest of my life with.
He who snores into my ears yet tell me i was th one snoring, has the face i wna wake up to each morning.
He who doesnt tell me im beautiful, loves me for who i am.

Happy Land!

2011-03-08T23:47:00.004+08:00

Life shld be like this everyday!

What Are Words

2011-02-28T22:50:00.003+08:00

Anywhere you are,
I am near
Anywhere you go,
I'll be thereAnd I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cos what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words,
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Prolly one of th most meaningful songs i've heard.
With his story behind it, Chris Medina is a real Man!

2011-02-28T03:05:00.002+08:00

Love me whn i least deserve it, cos thts whn i rly need it.

2011-02-21T21:48:00.001+08:00

But we were all to scared to say the things worth saying,
and i know time wont wait..

2011-02-20T00:50:00.003+08:00

Nth will ever mean as much as you are t me ♥

CNY2011

2011-02-19T00:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 20TH LUV!

2011-02-09T00:12:00.003+08:00

Hope you like yr present teehee!

3rd birthday im spending with you already and i hope t spend th rest of yr birthdays with you! Love you always baobster! xx

I WNA BURLESQUE TOO!

2011-02-01T01:49:00.004+08:00

Seen me through my bad times, and i knw they'll always be here ♥

∞

2011-01-28T01:16:00.003+08:00

"It takes a boy to flirt with you, steal your heart, give you butterflies, lie to you, give up on you too easily, walk away from your life and not care at all. But it takes a real man to handle you, embrace your imperfections, tell you the truth no matter how brutal it is, never give up on you no matter how hard it is, pleasure you, treat you like you’re the only one and give up the game because he’s just too good for that.
-via tumblr

21 and counting,

2011-01-25T01:49:00.000+08:00

I think i wna marry you!

Fyeah(non)singlelife!

2011-01-24T01:30:00.007+08:00

I'm always hearing "enjoying my single life now" or "how i miss being single"and i rly dont get why! Being loved is such a beautiful thing and its not sth that you can get as and when you want it.. right? I mean, i understand the freedom of being single and the feeling of not being tied down with any responsibilities prolly does feel great, but does it rly feel better than having someone t love and someone t love you? Really? I dont rmb enjoying my single life thaaaat much, life gets boring after a while.. Yes, friends do keep us 'lonely-free' sometimes, but that special part of you will eventually need love! Or maybe its just me, I see my friends coping sosososo well with single life and i can never see myself like that! Srsly think im too reliant..
Oh forgot t add that, only jerks and douchebags go "how i miss being single". Gross.

(Perfect example of a single yet coping awesomely well!!♥)

Like no sunrise

2011-01-18T02:53:00.005+08:00

Everything pieces out nicely fr me. I nv had to worry, nv had t do anyth myself. Since th day I laid my feet on this ground, I started t hope tht this spoon i had in my mouth, it'd nv stop feeding me. As I grow towards reliance, over-reliance actually, I realize tht thrs so little I can do by/for myself. One tiny obstacle tht could be a stepping stone for many others may easily be my downfall. You could probably name a few you've met and overcame bt I'm still stuck at. Too many till it's uncountable things tht I can't get over. It's too suffocating, something I nvr expected. Too sheltered and protected, I can't seem to go with things that aren't my way. Now with materialism kicking in, I begin to look at myself with much disdain. I'd honestly pay fr a birkin if i had th bucks. I, not the folks mind you. Dreams are never too unrealistic i guess. Nvr knew how a person could turn out like this. Such a strongheaded creature shouldnt be loved and ego shall always be my downfall.

2011-01-11T23:42:00.005+08:00

Lead me back into my pericarp,
im caught between hope and doubt.

にほん

2011-01-09T02:16:00.003+08:00

New beginning

2011-01-07T11:47:00.003+08:00

Its been a while.. i'm still stuck in 2008 and i kid you not it still feels as if i just finished my olvls :S 2011 begins with uni fr me, and i still find it hard to believe tht I actually hv to start behaving like a unikid and stop slacking my way through examinations and assignments waiting fr my friends to pick up th little pieces i left behind along th way. Yes im horrible as a grpmate as well!!!!!!

Ever since 2008, new years doesnt make a diff t me at all (obv still stuck at '08), so i decided sth new fr me this yr! Snipped my boring long hair and i never felt fresher!! Okay la, although its not like some pixie cut bt its still a big difference t me ok!

Tata~

Greetings from Tokyo!

2010-12-16T21:33:00.004+08:00

Lovin' my life here in Japan!
Frm Osaka to Kyoto to Kanazwaw to Yuzawa, now Tokyo :)
Tata~

SAYONARA~

2010-12-08T01:56:00.003+08:00

Taking th midnight flight t Japan ltr
bt i'm too lz to pack my luggage zzz
still gta go get my boots ltr haha sry i'm like damn super last minute.
Will be bck on th 20th, so till then folks!
Gna miss @Bryanek soooososo much sighhh..

I AM KINECTED

2010-12-05T22:44:00.001+08:00

Sitex 2010, luv luv luv xbox kinect crew! :)

27TH NOV, SATURDAY

2010-11-22T23:27:00.004+08:00

COME SUPPORT US AT
'FLOCK TO SHOP'
THIS SATURDAY @ HAJI LANE!
2PM-8PM, SEE YOU THERE!
TOODLES~

P/s: Do drop by and say Hi @ Sitex (IT fair) if you're there!
Will be at th Xbox booth! xx

장근석

2010-11-20T01:37:00.001+08:00

WHY SO HANDSOME???!?!?! *heartmelts*

GRAD

2010-11-15T02:13:00.003+08:00

Marutama ramen aftr dip convocation. Love love love that place!!!

Hehe luv my twin!

Classmates :)

Tadah! (missing: Mel, Zoey, Clarence, Eka)

Bezflen haha stuck tgt fr a couple more yrs hahahha!

Lubdub!

HAPPY BIRFDAE PORK!

2010-11-07T02:08:00.003+08:00

Celebrated pork's birthday at the Loof! Kinda like this rooftop bar, good place t chill :)

2010-11-01T13:53:00.002+08:00

2010-10-28T17:56:00.001+08:00

Not for the faint hearted

2010-10-27T13:25:00.007+08:00

Night Safari Halloween Horrors!
Kinda enjoyed it although i was quite frightened by th numerous shocks,

but kudos to the costume, make up and props!

MR. RIGHT

2010-10-25T02:59:00.000+08:00

We're 18 today! But it also means schls starting fr him sigh..

That aside, i'm rly glad t hv met th love of my life (life meaning, my life till date of course). I've always wondered why i've nvr met him earlier/later, and i'm starting to believe tht God rly does make fate work out fr everyone of us. So, if you havent met yr Mr.Right just yet, dont give up 'cos someone will come knocking in yr door in time t come! :)
p/s bryane waited 2 yrs bfre i appeared hehehe shhhhhh!

Oh and i've gt a little trick t share! Bfre i send a txt, i hv to unlock my phone, and in order to do tht i'll inevitably get a glance of my wallpaper. SO, recently my wallpaper is Bryane's baby picture tht i rlyyyyyy love teehee! And i realised tht whnv i get annoyed and am abt t send him a pissed txt (abt t quarrel la!), a glance at his adorable photo makes my heart melt and i'll just forget abt th mean and harsh words i'm abt to send out. This equals to less/zero quarrels which is MAD AWSOME! Ocassional quarrels may be healthy too la haha but thats nt th point!!

So if you're having problems, TRY THIS 'COS IT WORKS MIRACULOUSLY FOR ME!!! x

Further as we're closer

2010-10-22T23:29:00.003+08:00

D is leaving fr Newzealand tmr fr 2 wks. Tht extends the record of our maximum of 7 days nt meeting each other to 14! Awww, no maid fr 2wks hmmmm. HEHE! Okay you see, The Merchant of Venice, shes Nerissa while i'm Portia (as i claim ha ha ha)! This is how i love my bestfriend teehee!
Have fun at Newzie and pls take care of yrself!!!!!!!! Dont get hooked up to any angmoh guys hor, rmb our talk about'em th other day??? Eat more, take more pictures and have fun! Rmb to buy things fr me tooooooo :) Love you!

Picx frm our recent lunch at Cedele!

Totally in luv' w this cotton candy! Mad awesome stuff!

Wild Honey!

2010-10-13T21:59:00.002+08:00

Brunch w th bestfriend at Wild Honey! Food was just mediocre and srvc wasnt rly good. Haha actually i was rly put off by th service of that particular Filipino srvc staff pfffft. Anyway, th menu had toooo much eggs fr my liking, so after this, we'll stay away frm Hatched for quite a while i guess! Cant wait fr our nxt stop at some Japanese sweet treats :)
P.S Zoey you can come along hehe

WHT DO YOU DO WHN YOU'RE BORED?!

2010-10-09T00:02:00.003+08:00

WHAT I DO:
1) Shop online
MASSIVE MASSIVE shopping, my acct can deplete frm 1xxx till 1xx in A MONTH.
HOW? Idk. WHT DID U BUY? Idk. Sigh, my kids will starve to death in future.

2) Watch shows
FUNSHION!!!!!!!! Haha sry ah, no $$$ buy original DVD haha so stream online lor, Hahaha i like love stories, esp sweet and happy endings! I'm a hopeless romantic mind you haha.

3) MSN
I rly like talking online rather than txting!!! Mayb its cos i'm using iPhone, so typing can be quite a chore (dont get me wrong, i still luv my phone a lot!) So th main ppl i disturb online is @bryanek, @hellodeserie and @uniquez (goh hong kwong aka sister4eva)

And you see most couples talking on th phone every night etc. But nope, not fr @bryanek and i hahaha we rarely speak to each other over th phone!!! Except "i'm here pls open th door" of course hahaha! We're MSN DEVOTERS! Wonder wht we'll communicate with w/o msn hmmmm

4) Karaoke!
Because Daddy knws how much my sisters and i love to sing, he bought th karaoke system fr us! So.... kboxing in th house yaw~ haha! Just touching th screen, selecting th songs and tadah! :)

5) EATING
Another huge problem sigh.. i cant seem t stop eating! :s Hv been telling myself to go sign up for a gym membership or use the threadmill at home or go down to th country club or sth but i'm rly too lz to be true..

Updates

2010-10-08T00:45:00.003+08:00

Picx on Brandon's 19th :)

Deserie, angela and claire!

Almost full force, pity yq was somewhr in thailand camping haha!

Thts baobie, and we got lost otw t sengkang cos th GPS TELLS LIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"road deviation, turn left at 120m ahead"

2010-10-03T21:49:00.003+08:00

2010-09-27T23:43:00.002+08:00

I'm totally in luv' w her hair!!! (Samantha frm ANTM cycle 11's runner-up) Dont you think its mad pretty too!? Hehe i'll get a bob first, thn a pixie.. someday hehe whn i hv enough courage to chop off my locks and whn i'm skinny enough to actly pull off those looks!

OH and another thing is... I'VE GRADUATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(its only a dip i knw, bt stilllll i cannot stand being in my schl fr another semester!) NVR BEEN THIS HAPPY BFRE!!!! Time to paaaarrrr-taaayeeee sekxi mamaz~

I also needa look fr a job that will pay enough fr me t get my Balenciaga by th end of this yr hehe! I'm getting my hands on you soooooooooooooooooooon!!! Lobang anyone?????

2010-09-21T23:59:00.003+08:00

Currently using th Canon S90 and i'm totally diggin' it! Rly easy t use fr ppl like me and the pictures turn out rly pretty :) But i'm still considering getting either the Canon 550D or Lumix LX5!
Some pictures taken with the S90,

2010-09-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

Just did my eyelash extensions at Browhaus! Still nt v used to th feeling and i find it quite difficult to maintain (avoid water and oil based make up remover etc.) Haha nt fr lazy ppl like me i guess. And i even showered with goggles HAHA! Gna take them off maybe aftr a wk+? Supposed to be able to last fr abt 3-4 wks though bt i dont think i can take care of it fr it to last that long!

Alright, October fest at Swiss club tmr and Universal studios th day aftr (nt w th best company though sigh) But i'll def. visit tht place w th Luvs once th last ride is open! Till then folks :)

2010-09-13T00:54:00.002+08:00

Packed my room (practically threw everyth away), so its extremely empty now hahaha. Being a total sweetheart, @bryanek accompanied me in my dusty (and boring) room these 2 days while i was bz packing and sneezing away hehe. Gna try keep my room neat so i wont hv to pack like mad ever again zzz

Yr end Japan trip (Tokyo and Osaka) is pretty much confirmed, 11days away frm sg! But i'll definetely miss @bryanek like anyth.. Rly hate days away frm him sighh

Ttfn! xx

2010-09-10T00:06:00.003+08:00

Been spending my days eating away.. gta get productive this holidays!
1. PACK MY ROOM urghhhh
2. Get decorations fr my room! Saw some pretty ones tht i rly like already!
3. Decide if i shld work at Biotherm/apply fr a job at some prechl/kindergarten hehe

2010-09-04T11:25:00.001+08:00

Pssssst, exams are over HELLYEAHHHH!

Stresszzsssssszzzz

2010-08-24T00:44:00.007+08:00

My complexion is horrendous, bt at least its getting a teeny bit better. Nvr had soo many breakouts bfre! I kinda think its some skin allergy/rash :(
And to add on to this bad state i'm already in, stress lvl is climbing tremendously (been having serious panic attacks and mental blocks lately)
I need to keep myself calm and stress free, i realise tht its only under those mental states tht i get suprised by my results. All i want now is for 3rd of sept to come quickly.
So i'll be back aftr th 3rd, toodles!

2010-08-18T02:07:00.001+08:00

2010-08-14T01:53:00.004+08:00

IS IT TRUE THAT YOU HV TO SIGN A 5 YR BOND WITH SIA TO BE AN AIR STEWARDESS??????? Sighhhh, even harder to convince the parents.. unachievable dream.

I wna be a billionaire

2010-08-07T01:07:00.002+08:00

Cant wait to spend the long weekend w Bryane (stayover!!!)
Anyway, i've been thinking abt wht jobs i'd like to do and a few came up into my mind. Teacher, air stewardess & marketing exec.

Haha i think i'd age rly quickly being a teacher honestly. Kids these days ah... Hahahaha, and nobody can imgaine me being a teacher idk why!
Cabin crew... sth my parents will NVR EVR approve off cos of th rly bad influence thr and i guess its a lousy full time job. And i cant use th "i wna travel!" excuse nyehhh.
Marketing executive sounds the best now doesnt it? Doing events fr companies etc.
Haha but ultimately, my ideal occupation is to be a taitai ;) I mean who doesnt right! Shopping, manicure, spa, massage and facial. Hahahahahaha its as if life is so simple. I wish it would be! Sidenote, I want a Balenciaga/Miumiu so bad...

2010-07-28T00:49:00.002+08:00

Nth much has been happening, but lately i find myself struggling for..... I honestly dont know what either. I'm just feeling kinda lost and empty. Maybe its stress? Its abt time it shld kick in already anyway. Sigh, this is why my only ambition so far is to be a tai tai..
Later

HOLLAND vs SPAIN

2010-07-13T17:54:00.004+08:00

Ohana means family & Family means no one gets left behind

2010-07-01T00:24:00.005+08:00

Taken quite a long time ago..

14th

2010-06-27T02:37:00.002+08:00

"never really imagined myself 14 months ago being able to love someone as much as i love you.
there might be a storm inside of you, but i'm willing to fight it with you."
-Bryanek (Blogger)

P.S Guess what?

2010-06-26T02:03:00.005+08:00

If yr husband/boyf dies (abruptly), will you ever move on to find a new love? This question keeps repeating in my mind as i was watching P.S I Love You. (i knw i'm super laggggg)
I think it'll be v hard to even get on w my life, let alone find somebody else right? Actly, i dont even wna imagine how it rly feels like to lose somebody of such importance :s Its just sooooo scary!!!

sigh

2010-06-21T23:02:00.004+08:00

this rly sux. nobody is as dumb as i am , i'm tired of trying.. :'(

MEL'S 18TH

2010-06-20T00:20:00.005+08:00

Its been a long way Mel, and i'm rly glad to hv you. You're always thr to straighten out my thoughts, and always supporting me through all my bad times. Rly appreciate you fr always being thr, love you!

P.S Hope you like yr limited ed Vans!!!

DDSS

I shld ttly be ashamed of my dirty camera lenses hahaha and it looks like its snowing!

Birthday kisses fr th birthday (uhhhhh?) girl/guy/gay.

Tongkytong! ^^

Happy birthday to you too Chessia! :)

SOS

2010-06-18T03:22:00.007+08:00

Okay right. So i hv this major issue on shopping. Obsessive shopping. I just cant stop buying! And th thing is, i dont like them rly quickly! Sometimes aftr wearing it once or i dont even wear/use them at all!!!!!!! I sooooo need helpppppp, if nt i'm gna grow into a working adult w NO SAVINGS AT ALL. I'd prolly starve my kids to death 'cos of my major shopping disorder. Ever since i was 6, i never ever saved mre than 10 bux in ANY piggy banks tht my mom gt fr me/i gt fr myself. I am sucha failure in saving money (or mayb in many other ways as well bt lets nt go into tht fr nw). Mega sigh, i reallllllllllly need to stop and i need discipline! The problem w me is tht i rly lack of self discipline. How?

On a side note, i find myself sick th 2nd time this mth whn its barely th end of th mth! Boooo:( Its kinda weird actly 'cos i rarely fall sick soooo often! And i realise its always during apr/june tht i fall sick. Weird much?
I rly think tht its 'cos i've been eating sosososooooo much lately (under th influence of bryane) tht God has decided to take pity on th love handles growing at th sides of my hips. So, he made me sick to stop my appetite frm growing. Thank you God, i knw you meant well :)

P.S: HAPPY BIRFDAE MEL! I LOVE YOU ♥

I, found, Love

2010-06-13T23:44:00.004+08:00

We may nt talk on th phone as often as other couples do
We may nt have many common interests
We may nt see eye to eye all th time,

Bt i'll alwys wna be th one you'll turn to everyday,
To tell me how much you love me.

Even whn i'm abt to fall,
I'll hv no fear for you'll always be thr to catch me.
Even whn i cant see in th dark,
I'll hv no fear 'cos you'll always be thr to hold me and guide me through,
Even whn i break down and cry,
I'll hv no fear 'cos you'll always pick me up and wipe my tears away.

I've nvr loved anyone as much as i love you,
and hv nvr met anyone as perfect as you are.

I love you baby, & i'll always will.

TIRED

2010-06-13T00:17:00.003+08:00

Wrking fr th PC FAIR at suntec city convention centre is draining every single soul of me... i knw its only fr 4 days bt standing fr 10hrs straight and getting ignored most of th time is NOT FUNNY AT ALL!!!!!!!! And th air con is constantly blowing straight at our faces as if we're blowing our hair th whole dayyyyyyy. My feet feels super soreeee and my heels hurt soooo bad! Last day of war tmr and I'LL BE BACK SEKXI MAMAS!

2010-06-11T00:31:00.002+08:00

When it hits th hardest, it'll all come crumbling down
Till then, pride takes it all over
Regret comes only whn its too late.

2010-06-05T01:14:00.001+08:00

HI LULU AND PUPU! ♥ Hahaha i knw you both are reading this :)

2010-05-24T01:28:00.003+08:00

Gt news of a distant family friend who was studying in aussie committed suicide. Early 20s, only child, imagine hw his family is gna take it.. sigh why are thr soo many ppl committing suicide!? Esp youngsters. How irresponsible can they get!!!!

I mean i knw its YR life. bt dont you need to think abt yr loved ones around you and th ones who gave you YR life too??!?! Dont.be.selfish.dude. Nw tht this has happened, i rly dk hw to tell my parents tht i wna study overseas...

Rumour had it tht he was suffering frm depression 'cos of loneliness. Thn i think abt it again.. i could end up in a similar situation. I dont like opening up my true feelings to anyone, anyone at all. I may see happy all th time bt thr're things u rly dk abt me (i'm nt saying i'm nt happy!!!)

Being overseas, alone, handling with all th pressure alone, everyth you do you're alone and all by yrself. Sounds scary huh.... Mayb i could be a potential suicider haha! Bt def. nt by jumping off cos i'm mad afraid of heights. And i mean SUPER ultra afraid. Hmmm, think 1 storey. LOL

Gdnight monstaz, ciao!

Updates

2010-05-23T16:24:00.003+08:00

I knw its been a while since i actly pen dwn my thoughts and feelings here haha so i'm backo peepo!

Nth much has happened recently tho! I'm just rly thankful to the many loved ones i hv beside me. My lovely friends, from kc and well as frm sim, my family and of course Bryane.

My birthday was rly awsme, and the gifts too!! Rly thank all of you, i knw ya'll are prolly super broke nw :( Bt i rly appreciate it! xxx

Mummy gt me an iPhone haha i was abt to get a blackberry tho :s Bt th guy told her to get and iPhone instead, so.. oh well!

Big sis gt a job at ocbc, congrats!

Denisejiejie is back from her longggggg xchange programme in Canada! So th kwoks are celebrating her return tonight :)

Exams are here again, in wk's time..... sigh doubt i can make it fr uni's july intake :( bt it may be a gd thing too cos i'll get to wrk :)

Lataaaaaaaaaaaa~ (later)

☺

2010-05-22T23:17:00.003+08:00

KICKASS 18TH

2010-05-21T03:34:00.005+08:00

I knw i'm legal, bt nope i didnt celebrate my birthday in a club hahaha.

Love every single one of you!

Th polaroid camera tht Bryane gave :) Thx a lot bbb! Love youuuuuuuuuuuuu (K)(L)

Best girls! +shana (nt in pic)

Awsmest boyf :)

Ahma and ahkong hehehe

Ohanaaaaaa

Special thx to usuals fr coming all th way to th east!!! :s

Queen and dashybaby!

Simkidz <3

2010-05-18T00:39:00.003+08:00

Super mega ultra late birthday post, bt btr late thn nv right??????
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED QT ZOEYFXL BB & GWX!!!!!!!!!!!

Beloved Soeyyyyy,
Although we've only knwn each other fr slightly mre than a yr, bt its been a great blessing to hv u in my life! You've been a great friend/confidant to me, being thr fr me, listening to my lifelong history ha ha ha! You rly make me feel comfortable confiding in you :) Although thr are times whr u break my heart and tell me to fck off and shut up 'cos of my horrible and retarded singing and actions.... hmmm i guess i still love you! heheehe ^^

Gwx,
2 yrs passed soooo quickly and thinking bck, you use to speak less than 8wrds to me each time we meet. Now, i rly cant wait to get rid of th rubbish you say all th time. From th diff ferrarris you own, to th amt of jetplanes you hv waiting at home... hahahahaha! Happy birthday and love la ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY D!

2010-05-17T00:44:00.001+08:00

Its been a longgggg time huh! Haha th prev post (video) was done by D, she hacked into my acct. hahaha! So this post is also fr her :)

Hello bestfriend,
Just want you to knw tht you've been rly awsme and important to me. Thank you fr alwys alwys alwys being thr fr me, scolding stalkers and perverts and ppl who steal our cabs, giving them yr deadly stare! No one else would read wht i dont say like you do, and just a split second eye contact and we'd knw whts gg on in our minds. You may be xiaohei and i'm xiaobai, bt opposites attract mahhhh heheeh!

Schls gna end fr us, i rly pray we'd get into th same uni course. Whtv it is, i'll be here fr you no matter wht. I'll RUN to yr house if u need me to, anytime. Hahah you shld knw hw hard its gna take me to run!!
Love you long time dd!

HEHE

2010-05-09T17:18:00.000+08:00

18 to be

2010-04-20T00:54:00.006+08:00

My birthday party is tmr and i'm nt exactly excited hahaha. I'm mre anxious abt my 1st anniversary with Bryane!!!!!!!! Wht to get/make/suprise/do fr him?!! Ohlorrrrd 2 mre days! :(

Everyday is Valentinesday

2010-04-18T02:13:00.006+08:00

Attended Bryane's cousin's wedding abt a wk ago! Woke up super duper early(530am) Rly love such sweet moments whr everyones gathered to share the joy and bliss fr th newly wed couple!

As usual, th guy has to bring his 'brothers' to get through all obstacles bfre he is allowed to 'get' to his wife. Funny to watch but nt so funny to do i guess! Hahahaha fr this, i'm glad i'm nt a guy ;)

Happy parents!

All waiting fr th bride to arrive!

Here comes th bride,

All dressed in white!

Hungry wungryyyyyyy

To avoid th crowd we found this table! Hahaha

A pity i couldnt make it fr th banquet at Goodwood Park cos of grandpa's birthday dinner! And didnt get picx of them exchanging vows and rings! Awwww rly rly rly rly sweeeeeeeeeet!

18TH

2010-04-13T00:08:00.005+08:00

RSVP HERE
Invites only :)

I ♥ VITAGEN

2010-04-12T00:58:00.002+08:00

Weird like tht, i love Vitagen mre than Yakult :)
Munchin on Cinnamon Meltz nw hehee, dont we all love sinful suppers?

Brian & Dom s' (not so) Suprise

2010-04-09T01:49:00.005+08:00

Family in schl :)

"One day we're gna hv to part Sandra"
Kindergarten till nw, guess we'll hv to part in uni :'(

Bee Hoon King hehhehee

They just love to take me eating...

Sweetest and cutest couple!

GIMME SME MOTIVATION!!!!

2010-04-01T02:14:00.002+08:00

I've set my goals.
1. Finish my diploma by this semester
2. Apply fr relief teaching at primary schls after diploma
3. Do my bachelors in spore, prolly honours overseas (still considering)
Shld i do sociology/communications/business/mrktg hmmm..

2010-03-31T02:16:00.006+08:00

(i found my hairband tht i used whn i was young! oldschl much hahaha)

Schls starting in 5days and tht sux >:( 9-5 everyday except mon, thurs, sun. Hw great huh!

My lifes been: wake up, cab to bryane's, slp till 4+ 5noon, wake up, eat lunch+dinner, slack arnd/go out, home, supper, stone, slp.

Th nxt 2 mths is gna be tiring, lesser of bryane means taking part of my lifeeeee awayyyy :( Sighhhh. Just hope these 2 mths gna pass reeeeeeeelly reeeeeeeelly quickly!!!

OH anyway, i'm thinking of dg my degree abroad, bt i'm still v v v unsure sigh. I dont wna leave bryane & my friends fr so long........ How how how? Future or Love???